Pulanglah Ku Merinduimu, Syafiah

Adam Masa Umur 42 Hari

Syafiah Masa Umur 16 Hari

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Syafiah...

Tau tak ibu rindu sangat pada Syafiah... Tambah lagi bila kakak & abang ni dok asyik cari Syafiah kat mana... Kakak tu lagi la.. lepas azan je tiba-tiba berdoa.. "Ya Allah, bagi la adik balik cepat, bagi la adik sihat.. nak main dengan adik. kakak nak jaga adik".. mana ibu tak sebak... Bila ingat kat Syafiah je ibu menitik air mata...

Pulangla... ibu tak tahu ibu mampu tahan ke idak emosi ibu ni... Tapi kata ayah, kalo bawak balik pun bukannya kita pandai jaga... Doktor lebih pandai jaga Syafiah saat ini... Bila ibu dengan ayah jenguk Syafiah semalam, ibu rasa lega sebab Syafiah dah bukak mata & banyak bergerak.. Yang buat ibu senyum sebab tangan Syafiah kena ikat.. ni mesti kes melasak ni... Tapi dalam pada tu hati ibu gundah gak sebab doktok kata ada bengkak sket kat otak Syafiah tu akibat pendarahan yang jadi masa umur Syafiah 3 hari.. Dalam keadaan ibu ini, ibu mohon sangat pada Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa supaya Syafiah ok, baik & bijak je bila membesar nanti... Supaya Dia hilangkan rasa gundah ni... Supaya Dia tolong sangat hamba-Nya yang mengharap ni... Ibu tahu setiap yang sukar pasti ada kemudahan.. dan ibu yakin Allah takkan hampakan ibu, insyaAllah (ameen)...

Syafiah mungkin tak tahu yang betapa seronok pergi hospital semata-mata nak sentuh Syafiah, semata-mata nak borak dengan Syafiah... & lebih seronok jika tengok Syafiah sihat...& akan bertambah seronok jika ibu dapat bawak balik Syafiah ke rumah...

Ibu doa moga Syafiah cepat sihat... sebab ramai yg tak sabar lagi nak jmpk dengan Syafiah... terutamanya ibu, ayah, kakak, maktok & mak-mak sedara Syafiah yang banyak support ibu masa ibu tengah susah hati...

Kuatkan semangatmu untuk terus hidup di dunia ini wahai anakku Syafiah yang sangatku rindui... Ya Allah, bantulah dia dan bantulah aku untuk terus kuat dan tabah bagi menghadapi saat-saat ini.. ameenn

Child Is A Bless

Yesterday, one of my nieces asked whether I would like to have another kid or not. Without much hesitation, I said YES. At least 2. Maximum is another 4. My husband asked me the same question about 3 years ago when I was 1st time in the labor room after a tiring delivery process. I was still on the bed and on my left side was Mastura.

"Nak anak lagi tak?," he asked.

"Nak!!!" I answered. Phew..! I forgot about the labor pain when I saw her chubby face.

A last year question when conceiving Syafiah...

"Abang ni nak berapa anak sebenarnya?"

"Ikut kemampuan By le. Kalo tak keberatan 7 boleh ke?" he asked me back.

"Insya Allah tapi kalo tak larat 5 je la ye," I tickled.

That's the deal. 5 or 7 kids. I forgot about the labor pain when I saw babies, when I grabbed them into my arms. Of course I felt the pain of delivering all of my kids. Perhaps I treat the pain as a gift, the baby as a bless from the God.

My target to stop conceiving is around mid of 30-40 so that I can concentrate on raising up my kids. I hope I won't be that old to see they go to school, experiencing hormone changes, go to college/university, get married and deliver me my grandson/granddaughter. What a long imagination!

Sometimes I feel how much time I've wasted in my teenage years. How good it was if I get married earlier. But back to 'Jodoh' thing, I'm so grateful that Allah s.w.t. has destined me with my understanding and loving - Abang. Hope that he'll remain good as he always do and we'll happy together forever, ameeenn.

I feel pity to the family of the missing kid - Sharlinie. Hopefully she'll be okay wherever she is and may Allah keeps her alive and watches her all the time, insyaAllah.

(By the way, we've taken back our children from kampung on 23/01/08 as we've been missing them a lot since the delivery of Syafiah. I couldn't left them there any longer because I feel so incomplete and lonely)

I Miss Them So Much!!!

Mastura

Adam

Syafiah

I KNEW I LOVED YOU (SAVAGE GARDEN)

Maybe it's intuition

But some things you just don't question

Like in your eyes

I see my future in an instant

and there it goes

I think I've found my best friend

I know that it might sound more than

a little crazy but I believe

[chorus:]

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason

only this sense of completion

and in your eyes

I see the missing pieces

I'm searching for

I think I found my way home

I know that it might sound more than

a little crazy but I believe

[repeat chorus]

A thousand angels dance around you

I am complete now that I found you

[repeat chorus to fade]

EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED

140108, 11.00 pm... here came the 1st hick.. I thought it was a stomachache at the moment... 15 mins later came another hick.... I asked my husband to surf on the net about false contraction (specifically called Braxton Hicks). Perhaps it was Braxton Hicks as my due date is supposed to be another 2 months...

Braxton Hicks - also known as false labour (British English, false labor in American English) or practice contractions. Braxton Hicks are sporadic uterine contractions that actually start at about 6 weeks, although one will not feel them that early. Most women start feeling them during the second or third trimester of pregnancy. Braxton Hicks contractions is a tightening of the uterine muscles for one to two minutes and is thought to be an aid to the body in its preparation for birth. Not all expectant mothers have these contractions. They are thought to be part of the process of effacement, the thinning and dilation of the cervix.

Later, around 4 am, 'ketuban' broke and a thick blood came out. I have never been so panicked in my life though I already have 2 kids before. "Baju mana baju?," I asked my husband. I was panicked because we've not prepared anything for this baby. He rushed about 160km/h. 15 minutes was like 50 minutes. The worst part was I could feel the baby's head at the exit!

We managed to reach at DEMC on 4.30am. And later around, 5.02 am there she was on another bed next to me. How I wish to touch her! But I couldn't as she has to be assisted in her breathing ASAP or else she'll be gone. I could see her face clearly and my husband has witnessed the way she went out of the alley. Thank God... she's safe (and I am safe too!).

Now she is at Hospital Sungai Buloh and I'm at home.. Alone.. Husband has to go to work and mom is not around as she hasn't returned from Mekah yet. She'll only be homing on this coming 22. My other kids at Sungai Besar and even my maktua can't take care of me because she is babysitting other's kids. My husband has done everything before he left - cooking, washing clothes, etc. We will visit our baby frequently, almost everyday, just to let her know that we support her and want her to come home quickly.

Mom is not around, baby is not around, kids are not around, husband also not around. How I feel so lonely right now. But in life, we have to prepare ourselves to expect the unexpected things to happen in our life. As I know that The Almighty Allah s.w.t. has prepared something good for us. So, let us just follow His path and be grateful...

Hari Keluarga Allahyarham Hj Hamid dan Allahyarhamah Mardiah Hassan

Pengumuman ini dibuat kepada semua keturunan (termasuk pasangan) kepada Arwah Hj Hamid dan Arwah Mardiah binti Hassan seperti berikut:

Anak-Anak + Menantu
1. Siti Jaliha bt Mat Yusof (pasangan kepada arwah Ramli bin Hj Hamid)
2. Ibrahim bin Hj Hamid + Zuraidah binti Hussein (Taiping)
3. Samsudin bin Hj Hamid + Saniah binti Abdullah (Pengkalan Hulu)
4. Jamiah binti Hj Hamid + Mat Radzi bin Taib (Puchong)

Cucu-Cucu + Pasangan
1. Noorhasimah binti Ramli + Anuar bin Ismail (Permatang Pauh)
2. Noorhabibah binti Ramli + Tuan Haji 'H' (Pt Buntar)
3. Noorhasidah binti Ramli + Azman bin Muda (Pt Buntar)
4. Suhaila binti Ramli + Mohd Noor Adha bin Sahran (Sg Buloh)
5. Siti Salwa binti Ramli + Ahmad Jefry Chong bin Abdullah (Sg Buloh)
6. Norhayati binti Ibrahim + Rashidi bin Man (Butterworth)
7. Nurul Nadia binti Ibrahim (Taiping)
8. Mohd Sayuti bin Ibrahim (Taiping)
9. Norakmal bin Samsudin + Wahiza binti Ramli (Klang)
10.Noramalina binti Samsudin + Hasnol Mizam bin Hashim (Puchong)
11.Mohd Rushdi bin Samsudin + Norsaini (please send me particular) (Pulai)
12.Ruwaida binti Samsudin + Sharizal (please send me particular and your add)
13.Mohd Syakirin bin Samsudin (Tronoh)
14.Salina binti Mat Radzi (Puchong)
15.Mohd Rafizan bin Mat Radzi (Puchong)
16.Mohd Izwan bin Mat Radzi (Puchong)

Cicit-Cicit
1. Amira binti Anuar
2. Ahmad Aziziyamin bin Anuar
3. Nurhusna binti Othman
4. Muhd Aliff bin Azman
5. Anis Izzaty bin Azman
6. Muhd Ariff bin Azman
7. Aina Ariffah binti Azman
8. Ana Waheeda binti Azman
9. Anisah Umairah binti Azman
10.Mastura binti Mohd Noor Adha
11.Adam bin Mohd Noor Adha

12.Syafiah binti Mohd Noor Adha
13.Muhd Aidil bin Nor Akmal
14.Balqis binti Nor Akmal
15.Muhd Najmi bin Hasnol Mizam
16.Muhd Hakimi bin Hasnol Mizam
17.Muhd Ammar Hafiz bin Rashidi
18.Noordini Affifah binti Rashidi
19.Mohd Hafiz Izzudin bin Rashidi
20.Muhammad Athir Rakin bin Muhd Rushdi

Tempat Cadangan : Pasir Salak Resort. Sila-silakan wat survey dulu

Aktiviti Cadangan : Tahlil, 'Pot Luck' (masing-masing termasuk kanak-kanak kena sediakan hadiah sendiri. Lepas tu hadiah-hadiah tersebut akan ditandakan. Cabutan akan dilakukan), Cabutan Bertuah (3-5 Grandprizes), Sukaneka, Aktiviti Bebas, BBQ, Sambutan hari kelahiran, dll.

Cadangan Penginapan : 3 hari 2 malam pada:
1. Tahun Baru Cina (7-9hb Feb. Khamis-Sabtu)/
2. Hari Pekerja (1-3hb Mei. Khamis-Sabtu. Jumaat/Sabtu tu kena ambik cuti xtra)/
3. Hari Wesak (17-19hb Mei. Sabtu-Isnin)/
4. Hari Kemerdekaan (30hb Ogos-1 hb Sept. Sabtu-Isnin)/
5. Awal Muharram 1430 (27-29hb Dis. Sabtu-Isnin).

Nota :
- Tempat yang dicadangkan adalah di pertengahan dan lebih hampir ke 'hometown' iaitu Tg Piandang. Berdekatan dengan tempat asal Arwah Hj Hamid. Memudahkan pengangkutan (yang penting kolam mandi dia tak payah pakai bikini... huhu!).

- Sila kemukakan cadangan aktiviti yang lain dan berapa hari penginapan berserta tarikhnya sekali (check-check la kalendar). Yang penting kena lepas Along balik dari Mekah (22hb Januari 2008. Jangan bulan 3-4 dah la.. che' dah reserved nak beranak & berpantang time tu :)).

- Sebarang penajaan amatlah dialu-alukan.

- AJK dan bayaran yang akan dikenakan akan dicadangkan kemudian setelah tarikh dan jumlah hari dipersetujui.

- Sila email ke sue_aleen@yahoo.com / letak particular di 'Comments' (nama penuh, alamat, tarikh lahir - termasuk bulan Islam, dll).

- Sila sms, email dan war-warkan perkara ini kepada semua ahli keluarga.

Jangan tangguh lagi. Aktiviti ni dah tertangguh hampir setahun selepas perbincangan pada 17 Februari 2007 di rumah Along di Tg Piandang oleh Makcik, Yong, Kak Chik, dll.

Untuk online calendar, sila download di http://www.kartun4u.com/2007/12/04/special-gift-kalendar-2008/


Lastly, ALFATIHAH buat mereka yang telah tiada... moga mereka tergolong di dalam golongan yang dilimpahi rahmat Allah s.w.t. ameeennn

Kena 'Tag' Pada 03 September 2007

Though 2007 has over but I still owe Kak Iza on her tagging - 5 things in:

My bag
1. Compass
2. Drypers
3. Face towel
4. Pens with notebook
5. Telekung

My wallet (doesn't look like one!)
1. Coins
2. Notes
3. Mykad
4. Mykid
5. ATM cards

Favourite things in my bedroom
1. My soulmate
2. Carpet (with Pooh playing a balloon!)
3. Exercise machine
4. Errr....
5. Errrrr....

Things I like to do
1. Snapping photos
2. Swimming
3. Travelling
4. Friendster-ing (feel free to visit mine!)
5. Sleeping (eermm..)

Things I am doing now (the way I interpret it)
1. Blogging - of course!
2. Hangat-hangat taik ayam housewife
3. Improving my cooking skill
4. Seeking freedom
5. Searching for new challenge

5 people I want to tag...
Nevermind! Next time... hehe.. or else it won't be ended...

Come Back From A 'Holiday'

Dah lama beno aku tak hapdet blog aku ni... almost 5 bulan. Dah bersawang. Kalo rumah kosong dah tentu ada 'penghuni' baru. Sebenonye... dedolu tu aku hapdet time lepas keje. Maklumlah nak guna reta benda co. Tapi sejak aku benti dan jadi suri rumah hangat-hangat taik ayam, semua jadi bantut. Net, snapping photos (uwaaaa... kena return balik ixus tu kat co.).

Prinsip aku mudah, kalo dah tak berniat ikhlas untuk bekerja kerana Allah, baik aku berhenti dari segala perbuatan aku tu jadi sesia. Lagi pun rezeki Allah tu ada di mana-mana. Husband pun tak menghalang untuk aku berhenti. So far, Alhamdulillah Allah tetap tak putuskan rezeki kami. Dan aku masih percaya bahawa kedatangan orang ke-5 dalam keluarga aku ni akan membawa rezeki yang lebih banyak dan melimpah ruah. What? Ada lagi? Expexted delivery date is somewhere around mid of March. Pandai.. pandai... 1st kid June (06), 2nd - Dec (12), 3rd - perhaps March (03)... Alhamdulillah.. kali ni baby ni tak nak tunjuk jantina.. dah nak masuk 7 pun masih sorok-sorok... surprise!!!

Bila tak keje ni ingatkan tak de la lagi pegi vacation memana... Last yang aku hapdet blog ni bulan 8. Hujung bulan 8 tu aku pegi Cameron Highlands lagi 3h2m. Bulan 9 dah puasa... bulan 10 dah sebok dengan raya. Awal bulan 11 ritu pegi Langkawi. 3h2m jugak. Pegi reramai - aku, husband, anak-anak, mak, Awa, Kak Bib, Una, Anis, mak mertua, ayah mertua, atip. Menginap kat Condo Istana. Pegi sana pun sebab nak fulfil hasrat mak aku yang asyik sebut nak ke Langkawi. Ada sorang anak dia lagi selalu pegi Langkawi tak pernah nak ajak dia...

Aku kalo bab orang tua menyebut ni aku tak sampai hati dan aku tak berapa happy kalo aku and husband je pegi jalan-jalan. Ada sekali tu dalam bulan 11 jugak aku pegi Janda Baik, menginap kat chalet semalam RM50 je. Tempat tu best... mengenangkan aku pada arwah nenek aku yang duduk di pinggir hutan di Kedah. Depan rumah dia ada sungai... Rumah dia plak di celah-celah kebun getah yang ditanam dengan pokok buah-buahan - manggis, durian, rambutan. Bila bangun pagi sebijik aje bunyinya...

Bulan 12 lagi sakan.... dari awal bulan sampai ke hujungnya. Weekend pertama ke Pengkalan Hulu. Waida sepupu aku kawen. Next weekendnya menganto mak ke Bayan Lepas sebab nak ke Mekah. Kita orang lepak kat Kompleks Tabung Haji tu sampai midnite. Sedih bila ngenangkan dia pegi sendirian. Tak de teman. Teman mahramnya pun dipilih oleh Tabung Haji. Tapi kena berbalik gak pada fitrah, kita datang ke dunia juga seorang diri.

Actually, we supposed to go to Kedah the next weekend but my husband dah tak larat nak drive jejauh, so we just went to the reception of Dato Ibrahim Yusof's daughter at Shah Alam. The very next week dah raya Haji plak. Sebelah lelaki sepupu aku yang kawen awal bulan tu 23hb. Mula tu memang rasa tak nak pegi dah tapi disebabkan ada a few people were asking whether we'll be going or not, rasa cam serba salah la plak. So lepak pulak kat Batu Pahat 22-23. Mak sedara aku ni sewa semi-d. Satu rumah RM450, ada 9 bilik tido.

Aku rasa Disember 2007 la bulan yang paling meletihkan dalam sejarah jalan-jalan ni. Sampai buatkan aku rasa nak 'cuti' dari pegi jalan-jalan untuk sementara waktu. Tapi kan husband aku dah berazam nak ke Terengganu tahun ni sempena tahun melawat Terengganu. InsyaAllah tiada aral kita orang akan pegi ke sana. Langkawi still on the list... dan ntah ke mana lagi Allah bakal bawak kami pegi.

Still in new year's mood, aku tiada azam. Azam aku adalah azam yang aku renew tiap-tiap hari. Secara duniawinya, aku nak beli a new home, a new ixus/eos, a new car (which is mine!) and of course a new job! Secara ukhrawinya, bio le aku je yang simpan azam tu sendirian....

Oh ye... there's someone has tagged me! Tapi tunggulah... I'll write something about it when I'm free... insyaAllah