Perang urat saraf...

1. The M or L thing is attacking me right now since returning from abang's hometown last weekend. Perang saraf sungguh ni!

2. Dan balik² pulak, line streamyx ni bertukar jadi snailmyx/slothmyx... blog saya telah 'bertukar'. Hilang langsung mood nak update!

3. Adam was brought to barber to repair his hair. Previously, it was cut by me and it's turned out to be like Abu Bakar Ellah. Seriously he looked exactly like him! I have always cut other people's hair but none of them was boy. So it's kinda an experience for me.

4. Syafiah weight was 6.3kg as per yesterday. I don't give a damn about her development. 1 month bla bla, 2 month bla bla, 3 month bla bla... 2 anak terdahulu pun, saya tak de perasaan sebegitu... tambah plak anak istimewa yang satu ni..

5. Dear God.. please give me back my momentum! Macam lepas pantang 2 bulan, nak kena masuk keje balik tu cukup M/L. Demoted.

6. Talking about getting to work after confinement, specifically after Adam being born, it was only 40 days leave. We've made a mutual agreement between me and my boss, of course the HR asked bla bla bla... that I'd be back to work earlier. Coincidently, my PC 'gelong' one week before the return. Entah siapa punya keje pegi download apa entah, abih satu company kena. I was not around right? So, there's no such thing as back up or whatsoever. Kalau tidak, petik jari je buat keje, cari dalam PC, pastu siap... huhu.. sungguh geram! But at least, that was the 1st momentum to start work, wasn't it?

Bila Hati Dah Marah....

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(Amaran : Ini bukan cerita politik walau pun ia boleh dikaitkan dengan politik Malaysia hari ini)

Bila hati dah marah, segala nampak buruk. Bila hati dah buta, pertimbangan akal juga makin tersasar.


Kadang-kadang:


1. Hati pedih bila sesuatu terbeban atas diri walau pun perkara itu bukannya salah kita.


2. Hati jadi kasihan dengan orang yang sedang marah dan kita cuba untuk membetulkan kesilapannya. Kesilapannya hanya mendengar sebelah pihak dan juga mungkin merasakan dirinya betul *sigh!*. Namun kasihan, dia tetap berkeras dengan kebebalannya. Apatah lagi dia itu saudara kita sendiri.


3. Rasa tak faham jugak dengan apa yang berlaku. Kenapa cepat melenting? Kenapa rasa marah? Kenapa bila di'approach' dengan baik pun dok layan lagi hati yang panas tu? Orang kata kalo marah tu, betul la kita buat silap, tak gitu?


4. Terfikirkah kita... kenapa orang mudah terjebak kepada kejahatan/kemaksiatan/perlanggaran hukum? Kenapa bila ditunjukkan jalan masih cuba nak kona² dan terlalu cepat melenting?


Tapi bila fikir balik:


Buat apa dilayan semua lara ni? Makin diapproach, makin melenting. Punyalah tak dapat pertimbangkan antara yang haq dan batil sampaikan terlalu menurut kata hati.

Pedih hati dan marah ubatnya hanya dengan mengingati Allah swt. Allah swt beri hidayah pada sesiapa saja, juga memberikan ujian kepada sesiapa saja yang Dia kehendaki. Bukankah sesuatu itu terjadi ada asbabnya.. seperti Allah swt cuba 'memberikan hidayah' dalam bentuk teguran itu.. tapi jika teguran sekecil itu tidak mampu dihadam dengan baik, maka kita sebagai yang memerhati hanya mampu membiarkan. Biarlah Allah swt saja yang tentukan yang terbaik.

Buat apa la aku pi layan sebuah hati yang penuh rasa kebencian dan kemarahan... haiyaaa! Dia nak marah dia punya pasal la.. tak jadi kudis sket pun kat saya ni! Bila saya layan, maknanya saya juga sama level dengan dia... s*****!

Cerita Lewat Petang...

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Al-Baqara [2:269] : Allah memberikan Hikmat kebijaksanaan (ilmu yang berguna) kepada sesiapa yang dikehendakiNya (menurut aturan yang ditentukanNya) dan sesiapa yang diberikan hikmat itu maka sesungguhnya dia telah diberikan kebaikan yang banyak. Dan tiadalah yang dapat mengambil pengajaran (dan peringatan) melainkan orang-orang yang menggunakan akal fikirannya.

1. Kami tiba di Jalan Duta pukul 5.00 pagi tadi. Bas berhenti lama di Simpang Pulai. Dalam sejam kot. Saya tak mampu tido lena. Kena alert dengan anak². Syafiah diriba, Adam di celah², Mastura di kerusinya sendiri. Akhirnya saya terlalu mengantuk pagi ini.


2. Ingat entry saya, It'll Be A Long Silence Between Us? Kalo belum baca sila ke sana. Sungguh pun hati saya cukup terluka ketika di'backstabbing' tapi saya tidak mampu berdiam diri dengan orang² yang berkenaan. Saya masih mahu memeluknya dan bertegur sapa dengan dirinya.

Maaf dan kasih-sayang melebihi rasa kemarahan saya. Dan sesungguhnya saya rasa lebih berlapang dada. Seperti sesuatu beban terbuang dari diri ini.


3. Hari ini, terasa sekali iman saya terlalu nipis. Malah lebih nipis dari kulit bawang. Serba salah. Akan tetapi, saya akan cuba menegakkan kebenaran ayat² suci al-Quran sungguhpun peringatan itu terlalu pahit untuk diterima. Tiba² teringat kat kak Fazaruasyiha yang begitu tegas dalam menegur junior. Saya tidak takut padanya malah jatuh hati dengan ketegasannya itu.


4. Acek (lelaki) kena jaga Syafiah masa kami pergi kenduri di hari Ahad tu. Isterinya pi shopping dengan Husna. Tinggallah mereka berdua. Kebetulan Syafiah dah poop dan hampir tidur. Dia asyik bertanya, "Dia nangis tak?" "Kalau dia nangis macamana?". Bila kami tiba di kenduri, mak, kak Chik & family dah pun angkat kaki dan berada di rumah kak Bib. So, Syafiah tak tinggal lama dengan Acek.


5. Seronoknya dapat jumpak Along, Sarah (pengantin), Dik Noi, Abg Ngah, Farah, Makcik & Cik Joi. Dah lama tak jumpak mereka. Anak along pun dah masuk 2 + 1. Isterinya mungkin tak berapa ingat dengan kami. Semacam letih saja. Mungkin sebab mengandung. Rumah yang banyak kenangan. Teringat betul nostalgia lama ketika tinggal bersama dengan mereka. La ni masing² dah besar, masing² dah 'gatai' nak kawen! Huhu!


6. Ada orang salah faham dengan saya. Dah ditegur tapi masih tak mengerti. Dia nak cakap saya umpat dia ke apa ke itu terpulang pada dia. Sebenarnya dia tak mengerti apa² dan tak tahu apa yang sebenarnya berlaku atau yang telah diperkatakan. Teramat berat rasanya menanggung apa yang dikatakan 'kesalahan' orang lain tapi tak mengapalah... sabar je la.... saya pernah melalui dugaan yang lebih besar.. alhamdulillah...

Al-Araf [7:199] : Terimalah apa yang mudah engkau lakukan dan suruhlah dengan perkara yang baik, serta berpalinglah (jangan dihiraukan) orang-orang yang jahil (yang degil dengan kejahilannya).

Till then...

Melaporkan Dari PB...

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1. Kami baru tiba di PB pukul 8 malam ini.

2. Awa, mak, Jef & Adam sampai pukul 6. Bas ada masalah. Gear 1 dari KK hingga ke PB. Sepatutnya deme sampai dulu.

3. Adam & mak dah balik kampung. Rindunye aku kat mamat tu..!

4. Rumah kak Bib sekarang ni consists of Awa, Jef, Tuan Rumah, Anak Tuan Rumah, Cu Yah, Ika, Abang, Saya, Mastura & Syafiah.

5. Acek tak jadi ke sini petang ni tapi akan join sekaki dua kaki sok pagi.

6. Syafiah amat sporting bila nak dan dah naik bas. Asyik giggles je... perasaannya macam gembira je.

7. Saya log in di rumah kak Bib. Jap² lagi nak merayap kat pusat bandar.. hehehehe!


Till then...!

A Little More About Syafiah & Adi...

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On Syafiah again..!

Some of you might wonder why I've been talking a lot about Syafiah. Here are the answers:

1. Premature birth (also known as preterm birth) at 31 weeks + 1/7 day. Her birthdate was on 14 January 2008 whilst the expected date was supposed to be in the midst of March. See calculating corrected age.

Factors related to maternal disease or condition that have been shown to increase the risk of preterm birth, with associated odds ratio (OR) when known include:

- Chromosomal abnormalities; Dr. Aaron Caughey, a perinatologist at UCSF, states: "...it's important to note that the majority of miscarriages — up to 80 percent — happen due to chromosomal abnormalities that have nothing to do with the mother's behavior. The last thing women who have had miscarriages need to do is blame themselves...." source: San Francisco Chronicle
- high blood pressure (OR = 4.06)
- pre-eclampsia (OR = 4.0)
- age > 35 (OR = 1.8)
- age < 18 (OR = 3.4) - short cervix (the strongest predictor of premature birth)
- maternal diabetes
- anxiety
- periodontal disease (OR = 4.45)

More info, here..

In my case, the probabilities are short cervix (when I was sitting, I could feel the rheumatic), anxiety and Premature Rupture of the membranes - PROM. The amnion broke:

The amnion is a membranous sac that surrounds and protects the embryo. It is developed in reptiles, birds, and mammals, which are hence called “Amniota”; but not in amphibian and fish, which are consequently termed “Anamnia”. The primary function of this is the protection of the embryo for its future development into a fetus and eventually an animal.

See also, Kelahiran Pramatang.


2. Complication on day 3.

Newborn complications

Premature infants show physical signs of their prematurity and may develop other problems as well. These include, but are not limited to, the following:

Neurologic

Apnea of prematurity
Hypoxic-ischemic encephalopathy (HIE)
Intracranial hemorrhage (IVH)
Retinopathy of prematurity (ROP) - the checking is still on going
Developmental disability

The Intraventricular Hemorrhage (IVH) has been graded as grade III (left brain) and IV (right brain) leads to her Communicating Hydrocephalus.

3. First CT scan on 13 February 2008.

4. First EVD on 14 February 2008.

5. 1st revision of EVD after 2 weeks - 28 February 2008.

6. 2nd revision of EVD after 4 weeks - 13 March 2008.

She got meningitis in this 2nd revision. Pale, inactive and the whole body was swollen. They put antibiotic inside her brain directly. Completed IV Meropenem and IV Vancomycin.

7. Expecting 3rd revision of EVD after 6 weeks but they pulled it out completely on 20 March 2008.

8. Done the final Lumbar Puncture on 27 March 2008 to make sure there's no infection.

9. Brought home on 31 March 2008.

10. ROP on 9 June 2008. The ophthalmologist referred her to paed clinic. Admitted for 2 hours. The pediatrician issued another referral letter to neuro clinic. Went home.

11. Neuro clinic 10 June 2008. 2nd CT scan on the same day. The previously noted hydrocephalus has increased with further thinning of brain parenchyma. All ventricles are dilated. Worsening hydrocephalus. Changed plan from EVD to VP shunt.

12. 1 1/2 hour surgery on 11 June 2008.

13. Scheduled 3rd CT scan on 16 June 2008 but failed as Syafiah was unable to 'sleep'. The purpose of this CT scan was to make sure that everything was working. They supposed to scan her from head to stomach where the tubing is in place.

14. Wound clean, no discharge seen, no CSF leakage. Went home on 18 June 2008 after the nurses pulling out the stitches.

And the uncertain future ahead! There's a lot more to come for us and our extra special kid (the other 2 are special too). Hopefully, bright hopes and positive things will happen to us continuously, insyaAllah. I've witnessed miracles happened along the way, expecting and praying for more. Tamakkk! But she made me closer to The Creator, alhamdulillah. Furthermore, du'a is a weapon.

Go go Syafiah go... go and improve more! We'll be with you through hard and happy times...


On Adi Luqman

He finally left us this morning. I'm sure I'll miss the kid! His daddy came and took them home at SK. So, I'm 'jobless' (read : less job) next week. But I still have to meet the client next week. Oh, pray harder that the rezeki will be on our sides.

Oh, Ata has also been sent to his rented house at BBJ (formerly known as BB). His leave is over and now he has to get back to his world. He's a student!


On going back to PB

Heard that Acek (Waida, sila jeles tahap gaban ye!) has decided to join at kak Bib's house this afternoon. Awa, mak, Adam and Jef have been on the bus since 9.45 am (oitt... kalo sampai dan online, kem salam kat semua orang. We'll be tailing you, guys!). I've prepared and we planned to leave the house on 1 pm. I miss Adam so much. Sunyi rumah ni tanpa Adam tauuu! Huhuhu.. sob.. nak nangis tapi dia selamba je.. cett!!

Can wait for the family reunion to see faces I love in my hometown as I miss them a lot!



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Freak Out, KTR & Balik Kg

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CERITA SYAFIAH

This is a story about a freak out parent!

Semalam saya sungguh freak out. Tak pernah terjadi dalam hidup saya walau pun saya pernah beranak dua sebelum ni, perasaan saya sebegitu. Saya tidak mudah panik atau mungkin selamba, dalam menjaga anak sekali pun anak sulong. Tidak pernah rasanya saya jadi anxious jika sesuatu terjadi pada mereka.

Tapi semalam lain jadinya. I felt anxious and a bit panic when I looked at Syafiah's shunt valve on the right side of her head.

Johnson & Johnson's CODMAN® Programmable Valve (others are Medtronic, NeuroCare Group - manufacturers of Heyer-Shulte shunts, NMT Neurosciences and Phoenix Biomedical)

Kat area tu, nampak macam menggelembung, berongga seperti berisi angin. Ah sudah! Apa sebenarnya terjadi? Malfunction? Fractured? Semua info saya surf di net. Namun di sebalik ribut² pencarian itu, saya bertemu dengan amazing real life stories of Noah, Brittany, Little Charlie, Violet, etc. Sapa tah sorang lagi tu tapi sekarang ni dah jadi infamous film maker. Very inspiring stories! I'm not alone. Cerita Noah benar² membuatkan saya berfikir tentang perasaan ibunya. Betapa kuatnya hati seorang wanita yang pada asalnya teramat lembut:

They diagnosed this as an Intraventricular Hemorrhage ( IVH) grade III and IV bleed. This would be the cause of his Communicating Hydrocephalus and would mean the placement of a shunt was necessary. He was transferred to Seattle Children's Hospital and Regional Medical Center, where little did we know at the time would become our second home on and off throughout the first year and half of life. Here we would meet Dr. Jeffrey Ojemann the neurosurgeon that would save Noah's life and give us comfort through the many frightening and difficult times ahead. On March 3rd of 2004 Noah received his first VP shunt at three and half weeks of age after his head circumference jumped from 35.5cm to 39cm within two days. This shunt caused many problems and at 7 months he would receive his second shunt, this being a programmable now.

However, it was only the beginning to 15 more shunt revisions, 2 serious shunt infections requiring a total of 11 weeks on 4 different intravenous antibiotics, the diagnoses of slit ventricle syndrome, the placement of a second shunt this one being an LP shunt (lumbar peritoneal), the placement of his VP shunt into the third ventricle of his brain instead of the lateral ventricles, the usual place for a VP shunt placement, and the diagnoses of an auto immune deficiency called Auto immune Nuetropenia. Noah had a Calvarial Expansion (cranial expansion) on April 28th 2005. This procedure involved having almost all of his skull taken off and spacers put in between the skull bones to increase the overall size of his head. Giving his brain room to grow. They diagnosed this problem as Metopic Synostosis a type of craniosynostosis, Dr. Ojemann and his plastic surgeon believe this problem was acquired from having so many shunt problems and was not congenital.

Transformation from baby to an amazing kid!

Bayangkan betapa banyaknya Noah melalui pembedahan demi pembedahan. Sehingga ke satu tahap pembedahan perlu dilakukan bagi membetulkan tengkorak kepala (to make his head smaller, thus he'd be able to walk). Cerita² orang kita tidak pernah kedengaran. Yang kedengaran hanya cerita buruk dan tidak memberikan harapan (termasuk dari Dr IH). Berlainan sekali dengan rakyat negara maju yang begitu health conscious dan merakamkan setiap pengalaman sendiri di net. Saya amat berharap makin ramai ibu mempunyai anak istimewa seperti ini tampil bagi menceritakan kisah² mereka supaya memberi inspirasi dan menjadi panduan dalam bahasa yang lebih mudah kepada rakyat negara kita khasnya. Lupa nak habo.. Noah sekarang berusia 4 tahun!

Ok.. balik kepada cerita Syafiah. Setelah bincang dengan suami kemungkinan²nya seperti hilang selera makan, bengkak (antara 2 simptom infection/shunt malfunction) dan sebagainya. Baru² ini kami mengambil tindakan menukar susu FMnya kerana puas mencari di SU, Enfalac tiada. Sekotak Enfalac 700gm mencecah harga lebih kurang RM50. Tindakan sementara, kami ganti dengan Lactogen tin kecil. Dia seperti tidak berminat dengan susu ini... very demanding! Deria rasanya cukup sensitif dengan pertukaran susu tersebut. Begitu juga dengan puting susu... amat kenal dengan puting susu yang dia sukai! Lubang puting besar - tak suka! Terlalu lembut pun tak suka. Her suction method is so strong. Anyhow, she's still breasfeeding too!

Oleh kerana begitu freak out, saya meminta suami membawa Syafiah ke HSB pagi tadi. Saya tidak pergi bersama kerana anak² dan anak buah ada di rumah. Klinik lengang katanya. Tiada pesakit. Tidak perlu melalui prosedur biasa. Jika orang lain mungkin perlu ke bahagian emergency/pesakit luar tapi oleh kerana Syafiah adalah 'anak' HSB maka dia disarankan ke wad neurologi di tingkat 7 di mana pesakit neuro ditempatkan.

Suami ke sana dan berjumpa doktor yang pada asalnya dua orang. Kemudian Dr. S + the geng datang membelek kepala Syafiah. Ramai.. sejumlah 8 orang! Begitulah keadaan biasa jika anak di wad di waktu pagi. Pakar neuro dan pelatihnya memang ramai. Kata pakar, Syafiah ok saja. Gelembung tu disebabkan oleh reservoirnya overdrain. Kering! Untuk kembali normal, reservoir tersebut perlu mengumpul CSF semula (macam empangan la). Even the 'ubun²' looks terribly sunken!

Aiyo.. awat la saya lupa terma reservoir tu... panik punya pasal. Risau gak saya... dibuatnya kena masuk hospital? Kami sekeluarga akan balik kampung hujung minggu ni, tak ke naya tiket bas yang kami dah beli. Dah gawat² ni balik kampung naik bas dah la. Karang kalo naik keta kena bayo tol la pulak kan... Nak balik naik Perdana V6 maintenance tinggi, nak beli Merz tak mampu.. hahaha!

Ada nurse yang kata biasanya kanak² shunt tidak begitu aktif. Syafiah berlainan (alhamdulillah). Semoga dia terus aktif dan menunjukkan perkembangan yang baik. It might be a false alert but better late than never.. *crap! What was I talking about? better check before it's too late! Sebab jika tidak diberikan perhatian sewajarnya, mungkin akan menjadi life threatening!


KUANTAN TEMBELING RESORT

Ni permintaan Awa... sila ke Pahang Tourism. Bukan Kuala la... tapi Kuantan. Nak melalui WHB kena ada Abang sekali! Huhu! Macamana plak kat tenet tak dak? Orang cari sekali je terus dapat!:

KUANTAN TEMBELING RESORT SDN BHD

For enquiries or reservation, please contact :
Manisah Othman - 012 988 2807
SitiMadurah Ahmad - 019-952 3597

The office address and telephone no :
Jalan Padang Golf,
25050 Kuantan
Pahang Darul Makmur.........

Tel: 609-567 6688/568 2888
Fax: 609-567 9988


BALIK KAMPUNG

Sok balik kampung naik bas. Naik dari Jalan Duta pukul 3.30 petang. Sampai PB mungkin dalam pukul 8 malam. Mak, Awa dan Jef akan balik sebelah pagi bas pukul 9. Oleh kerana kami ada hal, jadi perlu bereskan hal itu terlebih dahulu. Lamanya tak naik bas untuk balik kampung... Hoorrayyy! Balik kali ni untuk hadiri perkahwinan saudara. Saudara ni pernah menjaga saya ketika saya menduduki peperiksaan SPM. Jadi macam tak sedaplah pulak jika tak balik kan...

Nostalgia The Zikr

Gambar dan berita selanjutnya di sini

Gambar dan sumber dari sini

Pagi tadi ketika saya sedang asyik mendengar Radio IKIM.fm, telah diberitakan bahawa Saudara Nazrey (bekas vokalis Raihan) bakal keluar dengan album solo kedua bertajuk 'Memori The Zikr'. Dan tak lama selepas pengumuman itu, lagu Secerah Pawana pun diperdengarkan di radio tersebut.

Cuba mencari lagu tersebut di Youtube, saya hanya terjumpa dengan saduran oleh kumpulan Mestica. Opppsss! Pernah dengar pasal The Zikr ke idak ni?

The Zikr (Zikir) merupakan kumpulan yang dianggotai oleh Nazrey sebelum Raihan ditubuhkan sekitar awal tahun 1990-an. Kebanyakan lagu dalam album ini adalah lagu-lagu The Zikr yang dirakamkan semula dengan kualiti dan susunan muzik yang lebih kemas. Antara lagu klasik The Zikr yang dimuatkan dalam album ini berjudul Secerah Pawana, Tak Seindah Sentuhan Mata dan Antara Dua Cinta. Bagi siapa yang dibesarkan dengan irama nasyid Nadamurni (Munif + Asri) dan The Zikr (Nazrey), jangan lupa ye.. untuk dapatkan album tersebut.

Personally, suara Nazrey memang sedapppp dan mantoppp! Bila dia menyanyi, mesej sampai terus ke hati. Antara lagu Raihan yang dibawakan oleh Nazrey yang saya minati adalah Alam Semesta, Nabi Anak Yatim, Harapan, etc.

Nabi Anak Yatim



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Beberapa cerita menarik yang lain:

1. Saya telah di'add' sebagai salah seorang kawan friendster si Saiful Bukhari hari ini.... Tengah gawat-gawat gini pun sempat lagi tu.. hehehe... macam tak trauma je pun..

2. Dalam minggu ini tolong akak jaga si Adi Luqman sebab belum dapat penjaga bayi di kawasan rumahnya di SK. Terpaksalah dia berulang-alik ke tempat kerja dari SU dengan jarak yang telah bertambah. Mungkin dalam 11 km kot. Kesian dia. Oh... mungkin saya juga boleh jadi babysitter untuk budak² yang lain.. tak gitu? *Oh tidak! Yang pasti, terkorban masa leisureku jika jadi babysitter fulltime... tolong sedara/kawan² bolehlah.. max pun seminggu dua*

3. RPK bakal buat SD baru pasal kawan friendster saya yang terbaru tu... *hubby jadi informer.. bila kita minta dia ingat balik linknya dia dah lupa.. cett!! Kami gebang pasal isu semasa/politik negara ni di merata-rata tempat hatta di pasar malam sekali pun!*

4. Esok adalah hari yang bermakna buat diri saya... huhu!

Ini Cerita Keluarga..

Sinopsis hari-hari yang telah dilalui:

Hari Ahad:

1. Anniversary Krsty + suami.

2. Sambutan birthday Balqis (anak sepupu/anak saudara Krsty).

Masa kami sampai Krsty + suami + Abg Kemal tak de di rumah. Abg Kemal ada kursus di Pangkor. Krsty + suami di Genting (amvoiii!). Kak Ija tengah masak 'Mexican Bun'. Sempat la saya rembat resepinya tu guna hp suami. Makan time panas.. macam orang tak ingat dunia!

3. Collect CD gambar yang saya tembak hari tu (penat sket aku malam tu layan gadis-gadis yang dapat ditembak secara percuma... haiyaaa! Gambo deme? $&&#$^#.. sensorrrr!).

Ditembak oleh Krsty... ada gaya tak aku?

Ditembak oleh saya (Nikon D80)




Ditembak oleh Krsty/Sha (Nikon D50)



Ditembak oleh saya (Nikon D50). Nampak tak lopak di ubun-ubun Syafiah tu?

Antara yang ditembak oleh saya & juga menjadi fav collection. Semuanya guna Nikon D80:

Semua gambar tak edit langsung kecuali cropping. Nak edit kena ambil masa sket. Thanks to Krsty + Sha for the cam. Toce toce.... Menghilangkan kegianan aku untuk menembak. Lain kali bleh la ye... tumpang tembak sekaki dua-dua kaki... InsyaAllah dapat job (bukan photo shooting) akan datang ni, aku akan rembat DSLR cam, handphone, auto washing machine bla bla bla... (materialistik!).. Personally, I like a heavy camera as it is more stable... tapi kalo rezeki tak menyebelahi, yang ringan sket pun also can lah!

4. Cadang nak pindah rumah... merayap-rayap ke U11, U12, Bandar Bukit Raja, Seksyen 7... Since suami je drive, seorang je keje, minyak naik, jarak jauh (Shah Alam-SU)... better kami pindah tempat yang dekat sket dengan tempat keje hubby. Nak pindah PJ (rumah sendiri) - tak relevan!


Hari Isnin:

1. 1st time naik ERL ke Putrajaya sorang diri. Tambang dari KL Sentral RM9.50 sehala. 30 minit sekali. 30 minit ke Putrajaya. Feeling? Syokkkkk! Lagi pun dah lama tak merayap sorang-sorang.

2. Discussion dan taklimat tentang job. Job saya yang 1st ni dekat je - PJ. 2nd mungkin kena ke Kuantan... Sekarang saya dah pening kepala nak cari orang jaga anak-anak. Mak mungkin nak balik kampung. Nak tinggal pun bukannya lama. Paling lama mungkin 3 hari.

I'm gonna set up another blog for my job. Saya amat berharap melaluinya saya dapat membantu orang-orang yang berminat untuk menjadi usahawan dan untuk yang dah jadi usahawan untuk mengembangkan empayar, insyaAllah. So, stay tuned!

Dah ler.. saya nak pi pilih Beras...

It'll Be A Long Silence.... Between Us

Alhamdulillah (English Version)
Album : 360 Degrees
Munsyid : Too Phat Feat Yasin
http://liriknasyid.com

Chorus
Ult li albi bissaraha (I'm opening up my heart with honesty)
Hayya nab'idil karaha (Let's avoid the hated and hatred)
Syakkireena a' kulli ni'ma (Let's remain thankful with what we have)
Ba' ideena anil fattana (Let's avoid all lies and sins)


Verse 1
I feel the heat
From these 4 candles burning
As I'm staring out the window
In solitude I look at life
From different angles
Thoughts strangled
My mind is suffocatin'
In this truth quest
A greed law
That we abide by is ruthless
Enough will never satisfy
Until we toothless
Filthy millionaires
Are gamblin' until they muflis
A sad fact of life
But mankind approved this
I gotta call Him
Sajadah is where the booth is
I'll make it clear that
I ain't even tryin' to preach here
By sharing thoughts I hope
To find a little peace here
I thank Allah for blessing me
To be creative
So here's a diss for me
For bein' unappreciative
Wanted a perfect life
Yeah smile then die old
Fame, money, women
Phat cribos and white gold
Drive my own Beemer
Before I hit two six
A straight pink bitin' toothpicks
Who walk around town wit' two chicks
And doin' new hits to woo tricks....
Now that's wrong
Pleasure from partyin'
And bull ish don't last long
A lotta yuppies sneakin'
Cars out when dad's gone
Crackin' bottles in clubs
Frontin' designer fashion
But I ain't about
To trade happiness for a Jag
So stop smilin' with your ragtop down
Cause for a fact
I don't care about your money
Or how slick your car
'Cause no matter how rich and big you are
It's still Allahuakbar...


Chorus
Ult li albi bissaraha (I'm opening up my heart with honesty)
Hayya nab'idil karaha (Let's avoid the hated and hatred)
Syakkireena a' kulli ni'ma (Let's remain thankful with what we have)
Ba' ideena anil fattana (Let's avoid all lies and sins)


Verse 2
I know that all this
Ain't the right thing
Partying, chasing moneys
And material things
Flying high
Think nobody gonna
Clip my wings
I'm lying to myself
Knowing that
I've been neglecting
Responsibilities
As a healthy Muslim
Riches and loot
Ain't nothing
We frontin'
Diamonds and scrilla
But forget to say
Alhamdulillah
Made my album a killer
Plan B
Now 2-3 droppin'
And I wish to
Ask for forgiveness
Your guidance
Protection and strength
For humbleness and faith
To make me a better man
Success in foreign lands
Never dreamt of that
I remember being 18
When we started Too Phat
Now let's go back
Three years before that
Sometimes I forget
Me and my parents
Took a trip with granddad
I remember '95
While performing Umrah
Made my wish in Mecca
Right in front the Kaabah
Dear God
You made it possible
When facing obstacles
Please let me do good
Before I pass on
In the hospital
And keep reciting
The Testimony of Faith
And find the right way
Out of this life's maze


Chorus
Ult li albi bissaraha (I'm opening up my heart with honesty)
Hayya nab'idil karaha (Let's avoid the hated and hatred)
Syakkireena a' kulli ni'ma (Let's remain thankful with what we have)
Ba' ideena anil fattana (Let's avoid all lies and sins)


Verse 3
Ay yo?
Two candles go out
That's when
I feel the wind blow
I haven't met Fatim
For two years
Been livin' like I'm single
Evaluatin' all the friendships
Relationship
The reason it's the tenth year
Is 'cause she's a patient chick
And as far as friends are concerned
Many I've had it all
From those who cried for my pain
To those who plotted my fall
I learned to differentiate
Fakes from the great
Mates from the snakes
Apes wanna beef
Hate's all it takes
For me to blow
A diss song for you
Not even worthy
As an album filler
So now it's smiles
And Alhamdulillah
Yeah, love me
Or hate me
This who I am
Look at the past at times
I wish that I was born again
So I can rectify mistakes
And my wrong doings
Attempts on minimizing my sins
Before my story ends
I ain't no Eddie Murphy
Tryin' to sound as a holy man
But if I tried to be a better person
Now I prolly can
(Wait...)
Who am I to advise you
I ain't been the best
Of God's slaves
Just a poet writin'
What my thought says
A little house
A little car
A little sweet girl
Thank you Lord
I'll try to slow it down
On the cheap thrills
This song will prolly stir
A little controversy
At least I ain't be rappin'
Bout the stuff
As tho' I'm born in Jersey
Stage name is Malique
And lost name is Cairel
Mama told me
Stop complaining too much,
So I will...

Chorus
Ult li albi bissaraha (I'm opening up my heart with honesty)
Hayya nab'idil karaha (Let's avoid the hated and hatred)
Syakkireena a' kulli ni'ma (Let's remain thankful with what we have)
Ba' ideena anil fattana (Let's avoid all lies and sins)

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Guess what, I haven't eaten anything yesterday. For the whole day (only a cup of tea in the morning)! The end result, I’ve vomited several times and have to take a pontalon, on which I’ve never taken before later in the night! My eyes were swollen this morning and my head was heavy! I was suffocated yesterday, indeed! But of course, as a Muslim, I've to stand strong and have faith in whatever happens in life...

I'm still hurt by two persons I really love in this world! I believe them but they destroyed it to my bones! What's my next move? First, alhamdulillah because Allah swt has showed me the truth! There must be a hikmah, on which if I put the faith in, it'll be good for all of us.

One major problem with me if I'm hurt is, I'll keep silence for a long time. I might cry first (sorry, Waida & hubby. You guys have to watch it yesterday!) but when I got the strength, I'll be as cool as an iceberg (or even colder)! I'll break it when I'm ready. Say whatever you want but it's one of my ways to face the real truth. I still respect both of them but this feeling will not go anywhere until you, guys, fix the damage that you've done!

I might be wrong too. Maybe I believe them so much! I don't force anybody to do something that is against their will. If they ever done it, it's on their own will. Blame me if you want, but I never forced anyone to do something in my own way.

I've prepared the dish for this noon for my beloved ones! I've call her down for lunch. But still, I keep my mouth shuts! Be it, it'll be a long silence after this between us because there's nothing I want to share about....


ps: Awa, don't worry, I don't blame you & your hubby... You're nice to me & my family. But go to h*** with this 'cakap belakang', stabbing me, coiled me like a python, I'd never forget although I can forgive them... or perhaps, I won't go **** to where do I belong for a long time.. I'm thinking of moving out, I won't disturb & tell anyone about this, on where or when, to others including you, nice girl!

Mari Belajar Terma Perubatan

Sejak Syafiah lahir, saya rasa hikmah paling besar yang saya dapat adalah "health conscious". Saya lebih banyak membaca dan berkongsi tentang penyakit & rawatan yang pelik-pelik. Bagi saya, inilah salah satu cara untuk saya berani berdepan dengan pelbagai kemungkinan & mendidik diri sendiri supaya jangan panik. Seterusnya, mengkaitkan asal kejadian & setiap perjanjian itu adalah datangnya dari Allah Yang Maha Hebat. Setiap manusia seharusnya berani bangkit untuk menghadapi keputusan dari Penciptanya.

Hikmah bersabar bila diuji pula, insyaAllah syurga bakal menanti.

Entah apa la agaknya yang saya dok menceceh kan pasal medical term. Now let me share them with you complete with few helpful links. Semoga pengumpulan link yang berkaitan ini dapat memberikan manfaat kepada semua.

1. ROP - Retinopathy of Prematurity. http://www.nei.nih.gov/health/rop/

2. CSF - Cerebrospinal fluid.

3. IV - Intravenous.

4. EVD - External Ventricular Drain.

Rupa Syafiah masa kena EVD dulu.

5. LP - Lumbar Puncture. Kindly refer to my previous post.

6. Hydrocephalus & Hydrocephalus Association. Ia berlainan dengan Hydrancephalus.

7. Satu lagi yang saya belum pernah sebut. Tentang IVH - Intraventricular Hemorrhage. IVH inilah yang menyebabkan terjadinya hydrocephalus dalam kes anak saya bilamana parut di dalam ventrikel Syafiah telah menyebabkan blockage kepada CSFnya.

Lain-lain tu nanti saya tambah lagi kemudian ye.

Saya dapati setiap kali saya buat entry baru, entry saya itu akan termasuk ke dalam Beras Terpilih sejak berminggu yang lalu. Saya hanya sedar bila saya check di Feedjit. Kata Kak Jie, "ooo elok tu sue..dia feed blog sue kat situ...blog sue terpilih antara beras yg terpilih..heheheh..beras mahai ooo skrg ni... cabaran utk buat entri yg lebih baik tu... tahniah !". (elok eikk... tak dapat la nak huhahuha sangat :P).

Alah... saya ni menulis ikut angin. Nak cerita selalu tang sosio politik tu idak le. Rasa kerdil je di Beras Terpilih tu. Saya lebih gembira bercerita & mendidik masyarakat tentang kehidupan dan kesihatan. Namun ada sesetengah blogger tidak suka membaca kisah peribadi. Tang ni saya rasa ada sikit silap... dari kisah peribadi itulah kita dapat berkongsi pengetahuan yang lain. Contohnya dalam kes anak saya - Syafiah. Manfaatnya merentasi benua.

Sama ada mataku yang kero atau apa ye... cuba perhatikan gambar di bawah ni. Rasa-rasanya siapa dia... Macam cabut alis eikk? Astagafirullah... Saya memohon maaf seandainya gambar ini bukanlah insan yang berkenaan. Tak pasal-pasal je jadi bahan umpatan. Jika benar dia, padanlah saya kurang minat padanya dari mula lagi dia masuk TV. Seperti ada sesuatu mengusik tangkai hati ini.

Disclaimer:
- Saya bukan seorang doktor, cuma suka baca nota doktor & perihalan perubatan serta amalan-amalannya. Catatan ini adalah berdasarkan pengalaman semata-mata.
- Saya juga bukan kaki gosip.. ahakss!

2 Hour Admission and Thank You, Docs!

Morning

I called H***m to request for the delay & explained about the mistake made in the resume. I received an unfriendly sound like no.. no.. we won't gonna hire you because of this mistake. Then, fine lah.. I said thanks at the end of the conversation. Don't care much if it is not meant to be mine. What I care most is about my children!


Afternoon

My husband came home and we rushed out to the hospital at about 1.30pm for an ROP appointment on 2pm. Arrived around 2.30pm.

Somebody who is a doctor has advised me:

"tomorrow, bring along something to read eg magazines books etc while waiting..it is going to be long for sure..even if u doa sampai keluar air mata berdarah pun it will be long! ..and btw be grateful while medical care is still FREE here..next thing u know, u have to pay for them. the gov will happily quote how much the americans, the brits and the aussies are paying their medical bills...so i say dont complaint even if u have to wait for few hours...instead buy something nice (not neccesarily expensive) eg chocolates or something and give them to those underpaid and overworked doctors and nurses who sees your child, as tokens of your appreciation..ask them how are they doing, have they eaten lunch or something...i bet they'll give extra attention to you and your daughter...!"

So I bought these at a kedai runcit on the 2nd floor:

Crunchies is my favorite though it's d*** sweet! Hey.. do you notice those included are biskut biji asam & biskut jem tersepit (I don't know what to call!)? Ini stock cerita lama ni... remind me a lot of memories.

While waiting:

Syafiah yang dah pandai hold her bottle!

Less than 10 people! 2 cute babies for ROP. Good... Syafiah was examined by Dr. SR (not me ok!) around 4.00pm. Dr. SR has noted Syafiah has have both optic disc palor. Hope it won't be that severe. Oh! You should go to the noon clinic! I'm so glad.. In fact, my husband didn't have to take full day leave!

Dr. SR called Dr. S, explained.. bla bla bla.. Dr. S asked her to write a referral letter to paed clinic. She brought this letter to a nurse, that nurse then led us to paed clinic which located at the same place - door to door.

When we arrived, Dr. T was speaking to Dr. S on the phone about us. Dr. S was actually in the NICU. There stood another paed specialist, Dr. N. After a few discussion, we agreed that Syafiah should be admitted to the ward. When asked Dr. T where has Dr. IH gone, she said, "Dr. I cuti.. cuti yang panjangggg!". To my surprise, my hubby told me that he'd be on leave for one year! Wonder why?

On the 'hotel' bed. Yah.. one bed for RM1.50/night!

Syafiah has been admitted to 8c ward (paed ward). Waited for a while in the ward, took her weigh (5.525 kg today), blood pressure & also temperature. All okay. After speaking to Dr. KC, he called the neurologist to ask for his opinions on Syafiah's case. CT scan would only be done on Wednesday, thus if we want, we'll have to stay for another 2 days. Meanwhile, do nothing except wait!

He kindly said that we should go home first as Syafiah is no longer under the care of paed clinic. She should be under the care of neuro team. Now between these 2 - hospital & home - which one do you prefer? Ding dong ding dong.. while waiting for him to issue a referral letter to neuro, we were eating 6pm heavy meal & borak-borak with other mothers there. Mom A is a mom with an infection's baby, Mom B is a mom with a down syndrom baby (plus jantung berlubang) and a newly arrived Mom C with a cramped baby! And surprise again, Mom B is married to my husband's senior who are at my age! Orang sekampung rupanya....

Dr. KC has released us around 7pm after meeting his patients and we've to go there again tomorrow morning to see the neuro who I supposed to be either Dr. T/Dr. S/Dr. E/Dr. Y anytime after 9am.

Puzzle huh! So many doctors!

Now, I would like to say thank you to the following:
1. Dr. A - an eye resident who advised us as quoted.
2. Dr. SR - an eye specialist who took the initiative and care for Syafiah's condition.
3. Dr. S - a paed specialist in NICU. Still remember how she touched my shoulder on the 3rd day after Syafiah was borned to console me.
4. Dr. T - a paed specialist in the paed clinic. We used to see her at NICU too.
5. Dr. N - a paed specialist. Never knewn him before. His gaya is like a computer programmer with a bag on his shoulder.
6. Dr. IH - paed HOD who is now going on leave for a year!
7. Dr. KC - a paed specialist. A broad shoulder and tall guy. Kinda a funny also!
8. Dr. T - a neurologist. A handsome and nice guy!
9. Dr. E - a neurologist. "Sabarlah", pat on my husband's shoulder."

Not to forget:
10. Dr. ZAR - an O&G & fertility specialist. Always meet him at Section 9 especially when eating time!
11. Dr. NN - an O&G and medical director.
12. Dr. RI - a paed specialist. Muka iras-iras Haliza Misbun, only she looks cuter and wearing scarf! Live in Bukit Jelutong with husband and the one and only boy.
13. Dr. F - a paed specialist.
14. Dr. K - a paed specialist. "Hoi budak botak!" he said to Adam.

And to all doctors in the world. I know how much time you spend not for your personal. Sacrifice a lot! BIGGEST THANKS!

By the way, there'll be a "Hari Jururawat Peringkat HSB" with the guest honnor - TSKI on this coming Wednesday (thanks to the nurses too.. especially in NICU). Hey.. we should create one day for the doctors too. Have you ever heard of it? Ermmm.... I never heard of it...

I feel and I know that my girl will go for an operation latest by this week. It's important for her brain. I should not be panicked.. there's a lot more to come in our life - be it, good or bad. This is just a piece of it. Pray that she'll just be ok and can tahan to fast for 8 hours before the operation. More importantly, she'll safe and survive. Allah.. please help her..

I know that you're strong, girl!!

'Advice' according to Niamah!!!

I cut and paste this from Advice, advice everywhere by Patrick Teoh. Don't recognise him? Then go back to no land ok!

"A commentor on the other post here said......start doing something about the whole situation instead of whining like babies! What good does it bring lahhh.... We all angry, mogok dont come to work, strike, then what? Got difference ar? The first thing to change is not govt but our attitudes.

Well, thank you for that piece of advice!!! You obviously are missing the point. Sure we should start doing something about it. What? Live with it? Say, okay what to do la? Thank you very much.

It is this type of attitude that needs changing.

Am I angry because price of fuel has increased? Am I angry that the government no longer subsidises fuel prices? No. I am angry because of how I as a Malaysian citizen has been treated in the whole scheme of this price increase thing. Instead of giving me ample warning and advising me on proper steps and precautions to take and giving me a target date to prepare for the impending crunch they say..SURPRISE! CAUGHT YA THERE! HAHAHAHAHA...

And I am supposed to find that amusing? And what's with the f**king advice?"

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Aiyooo.. see... I'm talking about this again and again. The point is he also feels same way like I do... pissed off when someone advises another way round! They just don't get the point.

Leave this petrol hikes story behind. I just need to breathe... inhale... exhalleeee!

Today there'll be another battle in the hospital in the afternoon. I just hope it won't turn out to be like last week. 2 : 50. Many doctors were on leave! Or maybe 4 hours wait like last month.... we were waiting in real pain while the doctor was having 2 patients for operation! But lucky and to be grateful it is free! Mom also grumbles when q-ing up to get her prescription at a gomen clinic in TP. Usually on Monday once a month. Pity veteran people like her. I hope this waiting & q-ing thing will change in the next future. Change lah! For good and God's sake! If we don't make an appointment that'll be another story!

Owh... I've an interview this morning. To kill my excitement, I checked through the resume in the Jobstreet again. There's a slight mistake in my education field. :P. so nice, huh! Arghh... I should make a correction directly and explain to them wisely! Or should I call them today to tell them about the mistake? What if they are attracted to meet me on this particular thing (and certainly my job experience)? Yeah... better ask them first and if they still interested, we can reschedule the interview to some other time. Hopefully lah!

I hope and pray that Allah swt will bless me with this job, insyaAllah. Hopefully, I can help my husband in easing the burden of this life! But I won't hurt if this is not meant for me.... at least I can be 'ceria' as I'd carry on my duty as a mother at home! Allah swt will reward something for us, I believe! Ni pun hati dok berbelah bagi tau... tak lena tido semalaman!

Anyone who interested in playing Final Fortress out there?

Pictures from 'Abang'

Downloaded these on Friday from hubby's HP. The 'Girl' was not shy anymore. Sometimes appears, sometimes disappears... arghhh.. we should change our HP! *owh.. my HP is outdated.. product of 2004!*

See... the increasing of Syafiah's COH is too obvious!



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I think instead going on for a kapchai/bike, we better buy a horse! Kuda lari laju jugak kan... kalau tidak orang tak panggil la kuasa kuda. I'm now going through a website - Purebred Arabian. Takpe la one time shot for transportation and whatnot. Tak payah bayar roadtax (tax kuda ada ke?), tak payah isi minyak... Di SU ni ada beberapa ekor milik YDPA, ada stable kuda lagi kat situ.. & saper-saper teringin naik kuda datang ler sini... Kena charge berapa tah tak ingat!

Bab mengarut serah.. tak ingat.. maintenance tinggi! Dust dia, syampu dia, makanan dia... wallahhhh! Roboh kocek!

Simple Life

This is not a story about Paris Hilton or Nicole Richie. This is a story about us!

I'm not working but my husband does!

A simple math for petrol consumption per month (JJCM @ JJCTT @ balik kampung excluded!):

Previous price - RM600 / RM1.92 = 312.5 liter/month.

New price - RM2.70 x 312.5 liter = RM843.75/month.

That is just for petrol. Housing loans (2 houses)? Hire & purchase? Personal?

I've to go back to work! Arghh... I need to sacrifice the best thing in my life. Taking care of my children by myself! Though previously my wages was much higher than my husband, it's just fun to see they're growing up in front of my very eyes.

If I just can let go one of our houses. To our disadvantage in the long run, they are rented by others. If we sell them, they'll be no more extra income. Furthermore, we just bought them in 2002. The loan is yet to be matured.

My husband needs to find a kapchai then... loan again! And where on earth we should korek the deposit? Korek korek korek!!

Like a blogger said, "how to change? I don't take holidays. I don't drink. I don't party. I don't buy expensive clothes. I live a very moderate and thrifty lifestyle already."

I've been living a simple life since my single day. No katil, no aircond, no bibik, no new clothes, no nursery, no house make over, no Astro, no kerusi empuk (sit on the floor, please!), no cosmetics (even a compact powder/a lipstick!). Believe me.. our Syabas usage is always under 20m cubic (around RM7/20m3)! Electricity? Under RM10. I want to change my semi-auto washing machine to fully auto, but I've been postponed it *nampak gayanya I've to hand wash my clothes frequently*. There's once, the main inlet to the water tank was actually blocked. We just let it be about 5 months! We just used the pipe at the kitchen sink which the water comes directly from the main pipe. My fridge & 19" TV have exceeded 6 years of life!

Others - heavy meal just once per day. Rice + fried egg/chicken/fish/anchovies/tinned mackarel. Cicah kicap bercili api dan bawang. Mom has planted some useful plants in our yard, be it - lemongrass (6), long bean, winged bean, pandan, aloe vera, water spinach, tapioca, cili, jambu, mango. I'm thinking of getting more pots for hydrophonic at the backyard where there's no soil there. Maybe I can buy an aquarium to breed catfish, whirlwind, snake head and even toman!! Come the night, we always eat biscuits. Sometimes tapau if we want to eat something different! As for my husband, he always skips his lunch!

My favorite lunch meal (with rice). Ikan rebus!

Occasionally. You can find these at Warung Makteh Mee Banjir Udang at Kuala Sepetang


Jarang buat - Macaroni & Cheese. Recipe : here! Delicious!

Things I can't let go - diapers & formula for my kids - which I admit, expensive especially S-26 for Syafiah! I won't deny their needs for nutritious meals and also education materials i.e. books, etc. Adam may quit his diaper by end of this year. I found out it is easy to train the kid to toilet at that age. The best example is Mastura. I'll put Mastura in kindergarten only next year! Meanwhile, I teach them at home & monitor their interests!

I'm quite pissed off if someone says, "Kita kena ubah cara hidup kita""Lepas ni kena banyak ubah". I'm not a housewife with the lust to compete our household with our neighbours. Shopaholic? Nay.. way to far!

Ata & Unisel

Hari ni secara tiba-tiba je adik ipar saya - Ata - datang ke rumah pada pukul 1 petang. Bila dia beri salam, saya teramat cam suara itu. Isk.. ni mesti ada apa-apa.

Ata : "Ibu ada tak ibu?" anak-anak menyambutnya di hadapan pintu.

Saya : "Kenapa ni?"

Ata : "Nak mintak tolong akak tunjukkan jalan ke Shah Alam"

Saya : "Ok"

Sambil bersiap, dia makan bihun untuk brunch tadi. Masih banyak. Saya syak dia mesti belum makan. Saya dengan mak kalau dah makan sekitar jam 11 pagi, kenyangnya menghala ke petang. Petang sikit baru masak tengahari... boleh? Selalu macam tu.

Rupanya dia perlu menghantar kad jemputan untuk majlis di Unisel malam ni (8-11 malam). Segan untuk pergi berdua, saya ajak Mastura sekali. Baguih sungguh la ada anak dara kecik ni. Senang nak ajak! Adik-adik ipar saya semuanya lelaki okay... kadang-kadang perasaan tak selesa tu wujud dengan sendirinya walau pun saya boleh mix well dengan mereka.

Kami tiba di Unisel Shah Alam sekitar jam 2. Ketika membelok di Petronas, saya tunjukkan bangunan tempat abangnya bekerja hanya di hadapan tu. Boleh nampak dari Unisel sebab ia bersebelahan.

Sambil dia edarkan kad jemputan tu, saya & Mastura tunggu di bawah. Sempat ambil gambar-gambar di bawah ni.

Isk.. kalo ada kamera sendiri dah lama saya bereksperimen ni!

Kasut Princess yang dibeli hari tu. Masa lepak dengan dia ni, sempat mintak sepasang lagi. Adehhh.. ingat mak ni cap kasut ka!

Saya war-warkan bagi pihak Unisel (walau pun tak dibayar). Sapa-sapa nak cari keje pi la Unisel ikut tarikh kat atas tu. Katanya ada 5k kekosongan.. cor try pi.. baru tau betul ke tak, k! Yang semestinya, pakailah pakaian yang formal...

Katanya, dia kena marah sebab hari yang sama ada event baru nak hantar kad. Lepas tu kami pun balik dalam keadaan hujan lebat. Kereta yang dia bawa sebenarnya kereta lama kami yang diberikan pada akak. Akak pulak dalam pantang. So, terkenang semasa dulu la pulaks!

Owh ye... anak akak masuk hospital balik hari Sabtu sebab jaundice. Hopefully ok je la sebab nak ikutkan jaundice ni bleh baik lepas 1-2 minggu. Hari dia nak discharge tu pun saya dah cakap kat dia yang anak dia nyata jaundice. Pelik pulak rasanya HSB tak tahan anak dia lebih lama. Dah lepas seminggu pun anak dia belum pulih malah masuk ke hospital di kampung pulak. Alahai!

Erkkk... sebenarnya risau sangat dengan cara dia pandu kereta. Maklumlah baru P pun. Tapi tak nak cite la.. dah sampai rumah tu kira ok la kan... alhamdulillah...

Yang bertuahnya, nak tau kami makan berat pukul berapa? Masa citer Ezora tu ditayangkan... punyalah lambat! Dan yang lebih bertuah lagi, saya baru je minta redha suami sebab keluar tengahari tadi masa suami balik dari keje. Bertuah punya bini. Alhamdulillah cik abe mengerti... tidak mengkalu.. haghu!

Pasar Longgok, Appointment Dr RI & Pizza Hut

Hari ni sepatutnya dijadualkan untuk ROP screening for Syafiah. Di bahagian pendaftaran lengang semacam je. Tak silap ada dalam 3-4 orang je. Dalam hati berbunga-bunga kebestesannya... Tup-tup bila sampai kat klinik, orang berlonggok macam dalam pasar. Daftar la jugak. Bila nurse sorang ni datang menitikkan sejenis liquid *yang tak dapat nak recall namanya apa walau pun ada orang tu bagitahu dah dulu* ke mata Syafiah, dia siap cakap, "Lepas ni akak nak ke mana-mana pun pergi laa... doktor ada 2 orang je. Tak tahu la dapat buat pukul berapa." Apaaa.... 2 orang.. kami kat situ berlonggok dalam 50 orang!

We decided to reschedule the appointment to next week *dengan harapan supaya doktor tak cuti panjang*. Sebenarnya dah tak larat la nak pi klinik mata ni. Perit!!! Boleh dapat sakit lain plak rasanya.. sakit darah tinggi/pening kepala. Lama-lama samar lampu pun rasa lain macam.

Balik tu sempat belasah ke OU. Hari ni walau pun craving for japanese food, tahan diri supaya tak beli. Akhirnya beli roti kopi & donat. Mak ada sebut-sebut tempohari. Tak sedap hati tak carikan...

Lebih kurang pukul 6 petang bergegas ke Shah Alam plak. Ada appointment dengan Dr RI for 2 1/2 years Adam and also Syafiah. So dua-dua kena inject la kat bontot. Adam dah abih, tunggu sampai sekolah la pulak. Bila check berat semua sekali - Mastura (17 kg), Adam (12 kg) & Syafiah (5.3 kg). Dalam ramai-ramai, Mastura la yang paling tak sabar nak jumpa dengan Dr RI. Ditanya kenapa, "Nak main lori," katanya. Lori?? Apekah dia nak ikut jejak langkah saya yang suka main mainan budak lelaki? Huh... Memang ada lori dalam bilik Dr RI. Lori yang sama dia main sebulan dan berbulan-bulan yang lepas.

Nothing much to say about Syafiah. Just.. she might go for an operation!!! I feel comfort to discuss it with Dr RI in compare with Dr IH as she said it is nothing except to encourage the child development. Jadi progress anak tak ketinggalan jauh. Kalo Dr IH tu dia sebut yang buruk-buruk je. Sampai hati ding dong ding dong *but I pretend ok*. Banyak mohon pada Allah s.w.t., banyak mengadu pada Dia. Tak pernah express kat sini. That's why, this is one of many ways for escapism. Sibukkan diri!! *or the least.. I go to sleep. Kalo put to sleep tu dah tak de maknanya..hiks*

Lepas solat Maghrib di DEMC *sekali lagi terserempak dengan Dr RI di surau*, dinner time. Nak makan apa? Banyak choice kat Seksyen 9. Boleh spoil kat mana-mana pun. Udahnya makan kat Pizza Hut. Tengah hubby cite pasal Dr ZAR, Dr Zar & family masuk untuk makan kat meja belakang. What a coincidence!!

Segan sebenarnya dengan Dr ZAR sebab dulu dia tu O&G saya. Since Syafiah, saya tukar O&G. Tapi since tukar tu jugak la yang selalu terserempak *dengan Mike! Hihi.. tak..* dengan dia. Tak de la sebab apa pun tukar tu. Cuma disebabkan jantina! Sempat dia cakap, "Sekarang bz sket la ye sebab dah ada no 3 ni". "A'ah doktor..". Isk! Alahnye aku!

Seronok dengan menu PH yang sekarang ni. Macam-macam pilihan...

Dah abih makan, ke tempat orang jual tudung depan PH. Sempat jugak la rembat tudung 2 helai. Sehelai kasi mak, sehelai lagi boleh tengok contoh anak dara saya pakai & posing kat bawah ni. Tudung ni saya berkenan macam saya berkenan kat tudung yang Yong bagi lepas dia pulang dari Mekah dulu. Asyik pakai tudung tu je la pergi mana-mana pun...

Sori le imej tak berapa best. Anak dara saya ni macam umo belasan tahun je kan...

Lepas abih je aktiviti kat Shah Alam, suami merempit pulang sebab tak nak ketinggalan citer NCIS & Prison Break dia tu. Maleh la nak join. Karang tanya dia je la sinopsisnya.. boleh?

Record Breaking & Cerita Nak Tido...

Yeehhaaa... ini entry ke 31, cukup-cukup penuh 1 bulan. Terpengaruh pulak dengan style kak Rina yang update dia punya blog tiap hari cuma sekarang ni time cuti sekolah dan dia tengah JJCM sebahagian tempat di Malaysia *seronok eikk!* dan jugak sorang blogger yang sempoi gitu - kak Ija *belajo rajin-rajin no*. Jadi resident engineer/manager memang best sebab boleh online bila-bila masa... cik abe plaks sporting kasi mende alah ni... haha.. jangan tak sedo.. benda ni le nak pakai banyak bila dah SOHO karang!


Semalam sebelum tido sambil baring-baring... :

Mastura : "Se......."

Saya : "Se.. apa?"

Mastura : "Sebijik baju".. hekhekhek.. dia ketawa.

Saya : "Bukan sebijik... sehelai..."

Mastura : "Se... bijik baju..." hikhikhik lagi.. ketawa... saje je tu tak nak ikut.

Saya : "Hish..." sabo je la..

Mastura : "Seringgit baju" makin kuat dia ketawa... kikkikkik....

Saya : "Hish.. merapu dah!"

Ayahnya menyampuk : "Tukang karut!"

*Ketawa berderai.. Mastura ketawa berdekah-dekah sambil tutup mulut, saya ketawa sambil muka hala ke bantal. Suka hati je budak ni nak pakai penjodoh bilangan yang mana ye... Ada lagi bicara kami lepas tu tapi cukuplah dipendekkan*.


Itulah kebiasaannya kalo nak tido. Saya akan layan yang senang tido dulu. Adam paling mudah nak tido. Kalo mak tiada kat rumah ni, dia suka tido bawah ketiak saya. Sambil main-main dengan jarinya. Baca doa tido. Kadang disuruh gosok belakang atau pun perut. Gelak serba sedikit.. terus terlelap.

Mastura pulak memang suka tido lambat. Susah betul anak dara ni nak tido awal. Semalam tu saya layan dia sampai pukul 1 pagi kot. Dia nak sembang je. Bila saya lari ke sebelah ayah atau Syafiah, muka dia semacam je. Bila diajak sembang dan mengarut dia cukup suka. Kelebihan Mastura ni dia boleh ingat benda yang lama-lama dan juga suka buat lawak.

Bila kita tido sebelah dia sambil tepuk-tepukkan bontot dia tu, kadang-kadang dia mengusik. "Busuklah ibu ni".. gelak sambil tutup mulut. Dah memang trademark. "Ala.. hang pun masam jugak!" *tak nak ngaku kalah! Macam la dia wangi sangat.. Hahaha*. Semalam jugak saya mintak dia menyanyi lagu Wonder Pets dalam bahasa Inggeris! Nyanyi sket.. gelak..

Lepas dia tido, barulah saya bangun dan ke dapur nak panaskan makanan tengahari takut basi. Panaskan air. Minum. Baru saya tido di sebelah Syafiah & ayahnya.

Syafiah pula walau pun masih bayi tapi dia cukup tahu jika saya tiada di sampingnya. Mengeliat dan berbunyi-bunyi. Suka cium dia... wangi!!

Ni nak bagi teka-teki... macamana susunan kami tido.. ahaksss! Owh ye.. pagi tadi *sampai sekarang ni* tambah lagi satu umat.. tapi bukan umat manusia la.. *jeng jeng jeng*... umat binatang. Nyau yang tido kat luar sepanjang malam *atas stroller bebudak ni*, bila dibuka pintu waktu pagi je terus masuk ke rumah dan tumpang tido dua-dua kaki. Di kaki Mastura la pulak tu.

Suami kerja half day hari ni. Weekend ni masih belum tentu kami ke mana. Janda Baik tu macam memanggil-manggil je. Tapi kalo tak pergi pun, sok pagi nak ke Bazarena Shah Alam.. sapa-sapa nak join?

Saya tak berapa sihat sebenarnya, kepala weng semacam je.. batuk & selsema.. semua anak dah kena dulu termasuk si kecil.. Sini tiap-tiap hari dah hujan balik. Minggu lepas panas sepanjang hari. Bila beralih cuaca ni biasalah.. tapi kat sini macam mak kata kena kira hari tak hujan je berbanding dengan hari yang hujan.. apa-apapun saya gembira Allah melimpahkan rahmatNya di sini.. alhamdulillah...

Kiwi, Buah Kiwi & Kiwi Express

Sepatutnya ni entry semalam since it was broadcasted through WHI yesterday noon. Lepas tu saya surf net tapi saya terjatuh hati dengan lagu nyanyian Gary Jules la pulak.. Sebenarnya lagu tu saya jumpa dari video di bawah ni...

"You shouldn't give up your dreams and hopes!"

Dulu masa cawangan Kelana Seafood Centre (KSC) dibuka di rumah kelab, saya kerap makan di sana sebab berbanding KSC HQ (Kelana Jaya), harganya jauh lebih murah. Sekarang KSC di SU telah digantikan dengan Restoran Rumah Thai. Setiap kali memesan makanan, pelayannya sudah pasti tahu air apa yang saya akan pesan - air Kiwi! I'm so addicted to kiwi juice!

Gambar berserta resepi dari Martha Stewart

Pernah sekali, buah kiwi takde, saya pun order air lain. Tengah menunggu, lori buah tu pun tiba, & pelayan tadi datang semula bertanyakan sekiranya saya ingin menukar air. Saya kata.. Yes! *dengan muka yang ceria ok*. Dan sebenarnya air kiwi di SU lebih pekat berbanding dengan di Kelana Jaya! Owh.. I still also miss their Deep Fry Yam & Prawn (cekodok paling mahal) + Buttered Prawn.. Owh ye! Air kiwi di KSC ni ada 2 jenis juga - iced kiwi blended and kiwi juice.

Semalam saya tonton WHI berkaitan dengan buah kiwi yang diusahakan di New Zealand dengan jenama Zespri. Pengusaha-pengusahanya ladangnya terdiri daripada orang-orang perseorangan. Salah seorang daripada pengurus ladangnya merupakan rakyat Malaysia berbangsa Cina dan amat fasih berbahasa Melayu!

Gambar ladang kiwi di North Island, New Zealand

• Pada asalnya kiwi banyak tumbuh di negara China dan dikenali sebagai Yantoa (Chinese Gooseberry). Pada masa kini, ia banyak tumbuh di New Zealand dan popular dengan nama kiwi sempena nama burung kiwi di New zealand. Kiwi mempunyai gabungan rasa buah tembikai, strawberi dan pisang. Kulitnya yang berbulu coklat halus nampak hodoh. Namun begitu isinya cantik, berwarna hijau muda dan berbiji halus, membulat di tengahnya membentuk corak seperti bunga.
  
  Selain cantik sebagai hiasan kek, puding dan agar-agar, buah kiwi sebenarnya mempunyai khasiat yang tersendiri. Sebahagian besar vitamin C boleh diperolehi di dalam buah kiwi. Buah kiwi yang bersaiz sederhana boleh membekalkan 75 mg vitamin C. sebanyak 120 peratus vitamin C keperluan harian boleh dibekalkan oleh buah kiwi. Kandungan kalorinya sangat sedikit berbanding limau manis. Kandungan seratnya pula, empat kali lebih banyak daripada anggur.
  
  Pengambilan serat dapat membantu mengawal nafsu makan dan melancarkan fungsi usus. Gabungan serat, magnesium dan potassium dapat mengurangkan tahap kolesterol, menormalkan tekanan darah dan membina arteri yang kuat. Garam galian tersebut juga penting bagi proses pertumbuhan tulang rangka dan membaik pulih. Buah kiwi juga baik untuk gigi kerana jusnya dapat meninggikan kawalan dos asid askorbik. Vitamin C yang dikandungnya juga boleh bertindak sebagai 'berus gigi penyingkir' untuk mengurangkan pertumbuhan karang gigi.
  
  (Petikan dari sini)
  

No wonder la jika saya dijangkiti mata ikan, bila minum air kiwi, ia cepat baik.

Rupa-rupanya kiwi ni ada 2 jenis - green & golden! More about kiwi please feel free to surf Wiki & Zespri.

Golden Kiwi


Green Kiwi

Ermm... bila la dapat minum air Kiwi KSC lagi? Dan bila pulak bleh rasa air kiwi 'golden'? Isk... ni yang rasa nak kuo dari SU pi cari kiwi ni. Heh... saya juga ada kenangan di Kiwi Express satu masa dulu... sungguh indah kenangan itu.

Brek Kambing, Sushi King & Jusco

Yong cite masa kecil dulu anak dia - Yamin - suka betul buat brek kambing masa tengah jalan-jalan specifically kat shopping complexes or street malls. Pantang nampak barang yang dia berkenan terus je kaki longlai macam tak de tulang.. bila tak dibeli, lagi sakan dia buat perangai. Sampaikan Yong kena heret anaknya yang telah liat semacam kambing. Meronta-ronta.

Sampai sekarang ni situasi itu sentiasa kelihatan di mana-mana. Last ROP check pun ada 2 beradik yang buat perangai yang sama. Sister brother. Yang kakak buat hal sambil baring di tengah-tengah koridor tempat orang lalu-lalang. Bila ditarik ayahnya, dia menjerit dengan suara yang nyaring. Bila balik, dalam kereta, suami cakap kalo itu anak dia, dah lama dia cubit.

Budak-budak ni suka menggunakan kuasa menangis, menjerit dan meraung. Bila ibu bapa dengar, hati jadi geram je & untuk penyelesaian jangkamasa pendek, kehendak mereka dipenuhi. Yong yang saya kenali memang begitu dengan Yamin. Alasannya - Yamin manja. Sehingga kini begitu tapi tidak la sampai buat brek kambing lagi. Dalam bentuk yang berlainan pula.

Budak-budak ni pulak, dari baby lagi dipraktikkan satu ajaran - menangis la ko sekuat hati (menangis semasa bayi boleh menguatkan hati... menangis umpama doa-doa buat ibu bapanya), yang pasti akan dibiarkan. Apatah lagi jika mereka telah pun kenyang. Nak tunjuk power memerintah dari kecil lagi ye... Lama kelamaan mereka akan biasa dengan tuntutan yang tidak dipenuhi & memahami bahawa menangis bukan jalan penyelesaian. Kami hanya melayan karenah si bayi sekiranya perlu & tangisan berpanjangan.

Sehingga sekarang pun jika mereka ingin meminta apa-apa mereka akan minta dengan baik. Adam pula suka meminta dengan mengajak & menarik tangan. "Ibu jom la.... nak susu..". Satu kekurangannya bila di mall, dia suka didukung ayahnya sebab tak suka berjalan (bertuah punya anak) tapi jika saya yang memegang tangannya, dia berjalan seiring dengan saya. Dan kedua-dua mereka memang suka berjalan sambil tangan dipimpin.

Baru-baru ni saya ke Metro Perdana, Kepong dengan Awa, suaminya, adik ipar saya & Mastura. Suami bekerja. Mak di rumah bersama si kecil dan abangnya. Kami lunch di Sushi King. Mastura makan sushi!!! Pilih sendiri pulak tu. Saya memang flexible dengan anak-anak. Ada perkara-perkaranya.. saya akan membiarkan mereka memilih sendiri.

Lepas itu, sesi berjalan dalam Jusco. Awa & suaminya ke tempat lain, adik ipar memilih bajunya di tempat yang lain manakala saya dan Mastura ke tempat yang lain pula. Mastura memang dah lama minta belikan kasut sebab kasutnya dah makin pendek. Siap cakap nak kasut Puteri (Disney Princess).

Since kasut dia pun dah lusuh dan dah tak muat, saya berikan kebebasan untuk dia memilih sendiri kasut mana yang dia nak. Bila belikan tanpa tuan memang ada kemungkinan bahawa kasut itu agak tak sesuai dengan si pemakai. Mulanya dia pilih kasut yang cukup buruk (pada pandangan mata mak dia ni. Dia ni satu pe'elnya kalo suka satu barang tu, buruk pun dia suka). Lepas tu saya kata, "Kasut kat sini banyak jenis lagi... cuba tengok yang lain," barulah dia belek yang lain. Seronok tau tengok budak 4 tahun belek kasut sendiri. Akhirnya dia pilih kasut yang ada diskaun 50%!

Saya juga belikan dia sepasang baju bagi menggantikan baju yang dipakainya. Baju tu ditumpahi dengan curry udon masa dia makan tadi... Huhu.. anakku pandai makan udon... Saya pun macam ketagih. 2 consecutive days makan sushi.

Suka bawak Mastura jalan-jalan sebab dia tak buat brek kambing. Ngantuk pun tak pernah komplen. Begitu juga dengan Adam. Sehinggakan mereka pernah tidor di troli kerana keletihan...

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Dapat sms dari Awa.. tok Jeff meninggal di Chemor, Perak. Jeff orang Hakka. Sekarang dia berada di Ipoh. Checked-in hotel katanya untuk 2 malam. Alhamdulillah Awa sempat kenal dengan atoknya itu. Cuma tak sempat ditarbiyahkan je. Baru jer beberapa bulan yang lepas..